Fear

This week I’m keeping my blogging a little on the short side; I have way too much on my mind to type out too much coherency in my posts.

But the one thing on my mind today is fear: what if I don’t make a lasting difference in my community for Christ, what if I fail to boldly proclaim the Gospel due to my fear of rejection from so- called Christians with very religious/traditional/non-biblical beliefs. What if I don’t emmerge from other’s shadows? What if I am not instrumental in leading others to Christ? What if I can’t lead people in the direction I am taking a church? What if, what if, what if???

What if’s are deadly and are something that I haven’t allowed myself to deal with in a very long time. But there have been a few things come up over the last few days that have caused me to revisit some ‘what if’ fears and I need to let go because where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom! I need to hold on to the fact that perfect love casts out all fear. I need prayer. I need God’s strength. I need boldness and energy from God to make a lasting impact in my region for people far from God. I need to fight, and continue to fight, and go down fighting if I have to. Because this is not my life I am living, it is His and He has called me to bigger things than bein afraid!